MY JOURNEY ..... YOUR STORY

introduced to Christ when i started school - St Anthony's Convent. we had morning prayers and hymns together with national anthem and school song. we had mass in the chapel and for some of us it was a break away from lessons, a time to rest our eyes, a time to do nothing. for me it was a break and sometimes a short nap. :)

all i remembered was that i could ask for anything from heaven by going through Mother Mary. i believed because everytime i lose something, i'll pray and i'll find it. it was a process that always worked. childlike faith? i guess so. there were no doubts then. i just believed. now that i think back, i didn't pray through Mary, i just asked to be led to where my lost items were and waited for signs. sadly, there was also no deep or sincere gratitude. just a simple "thank you" after that.

this went on all through my school days. however, somewhere along the way, i forgot about the asking for assistance or directions. i made things happen on my own and depended on my own strength.

sometime after seconday school, a friend brought me a to a Christian service...CULTURE SHOCK! where were the books? where was the process? where were the instructions? there was nothing for me to follow! i didn't know when to kneel or when to stand or what to say. however, i enjoyed the service. lost contact with my friend soon after and didn't step into a church after that until some years later for my sister's baptism. started going on and off with my family as shortly after that, my parents and sisters got saved and baptised but not me.

...the story continues in "my journey".

to be baptised by the Holy Spirit ... is something i will always remember ... my first love encounter. it was at sunday service, 6 july 2008. Rev Mike Connell was preaching. i have been told to expect the unexpected at his sermons and there certainly were many many encounters and i was one of the numbers on that day. i have described it in my personal blog and could not find the words to repeat how i feel again so here's the link for you.

http://star-creations.blogspot.com/2008/07/moment-so-personal.html

repent all sins, surrender fully and receive Him with open arms. he will come and fill you with joy, peace, love and hope...nothing compares.

Ask and you shall receive.

6:07 AM;
to love You from the inside out

16 nov 2008

a sunday to remember

my water baptism

the anticipation of going underwater, the uncertainty when in the water, the happiness of coming out of the water feeling refreshed.

was something supposed to happen when we come out from the water? there was no fireworks or a great revelation for me...just a wonderful sense of peace. however, when i was in the water, there was an uncertainty. a vision that was not complete. i wanted to stay in there longer to see the full picture... not possible. there was a long queue of anxious believers after me. however, i knew it will be revealed in God's time and it did in one of the services not too long ago. it was a sermon about discarding the old skin and putting on the new skin. closed my eyes and this time i saw the vision. a vision of me floating away in the waters. was that the old me?

then i remembered something else that happened a few days after being water baptised. getting ready for work and doing my makeup in front of the mirror, i looked at myself again after the final touch up and i saw a different me. it was a bright radiant face smiling at me for a few seconds and it was gone. so bright it luminated it's surroundings. puzzled over it for the whole day and remembering that face, i wanted to know who that was. i knew it was me and yet it didn't feel like it was me. by the end of the day, i was feeling scared because what i remembered as angelic had become sinister. what happened? i didn't know. however, as i lay in bed praying, a voice called my name, a "metallic" voice called out once close to me...only once. then a warm embrace engulfed me and i knew everything was alright.

little did i know that this was going to be the start of many wonderful encounters of a relationship with my Heavenly Father.

Rev 3:20
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with Me.

i have opened that door. :)

3:37 AM;
to love You from the inside out

i have always thought all i needed was to believe and have faith ... i was just fooling myself.

there is always something else i needed to do for the better of me and myself ... i was so wrong.

there were many excuses that seems to be well justified ... nothing else is further from the truth.

i didn't want to go to church because it made me feel so vulnerable. it touches right where it hurts most. i didn't want to get there. i didn't want to cry in front of anyone. i thought i could handle it all on my own. i did not need anyone to be with me. i just needed God to be there for me. as long as i believe, He will take care of me.

He did. He took care of me real well. i have led a good life before and He waited more than 30 years ... patiently ... for me to be ready.

when my parents and sisters got baptised, i asked myself why should i and that it was not necessary. i just needed to have Him in my heart. furthermore, i was disappointed with the way some christians were behaving...i judged and my excuse was i will be baptised when i can be the perfect christian. then a revelation came at one of the adhoc visits to church - that christianity is a personal relationship, it is a personal decision. how others walk their christian faith is their own personal walk. i am His child and He is waiting to receive me into His kingdom. i will be perfected in my walk with Him in His time. i started tearing. there is Someone who actually really cares and i wanted to know more about the Lord and His word. there was a sense of peace and lightheartedness all the way home. made a decision to go to church regularly to learn as much as i can. i want to grow spiritually. i want to know all that i need to know. i want to be what He wants me to be. it was no more a chore to wake up early for sunday service and i look forward to it every week. i literally skip my way to church every sunday!

that is JOY... and that was in Feb 2008.

happiness is dependent on situations but joy is from within and nothing can take that away no matter what happens.

thank you Pam ... for inviting me to City Harvest. thank you ... for bringing me back home to God.

11:07 PM;
to love You from the inside out

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