"The Heavenly Man" - When we arrive at the end of our own strength it is not defeat, but the start of tapping into God's boundless resources. It is when we are weak that we are strong in God.
above quote from the book "The Heavenly Man" ... a group of leaders were praying for deliverance of a murderer possessed by a spirit of darkness. they tried all kinds of prayers but nothing worked. all were exhausted and nothing seems to have any effect. out of frustration, they all spoke out to the Lord, "Lord, we can't do anything". as they sat there in defeat, things started happening, "...the Spirit of God came upon us and the demon-possessed man started shaking uncontrollably. We jumped to our feet and laid hands on the man. Immediately the demons left him".
when i read this, it reminded me of a time when things were just happening to my dad in hospital. everytime, we thought he's better, something has to happen and we were always told to expect the worst. it became very exhausting for me. a ruptured esophagus near his left lung caused it to be filled with fluid from the stomach. they had it cleared and by the grace of God, no further damage to his other organs were caused by that rupture. a few alarms were alerted after the surgery to remove the ruptured esophagus and to clean up the left lung and surrounding tissues, but they were usually minor and thank God, the results always come back as "all ok and nothing to worry about". then we got news that his right lung may be affected!! i questioned "Why?? why when You have brought him through the operation and everything else, why must something like this happen?" that night before the surgery to clean up the right lung and to check the surrounding tissues, i was restless. when everyone's asleep, i went to the hall and started praying for answers. it was a cry of desperation. suddenly i felt so exhausted and helpless.
i cried for a long time. then i realised that though i have been praying for his recovery, i am not without worry. there was still this small percentage of doubt and news of this surgery brought it to the point of a breakdown. i prayed for the Lord to take over, trusting that as in all previous alarms, this will be just another alarm and that all will be well. immediately there was peace and i knew my dad will be ok because the Lord has been faithful ... the surgery went well and apparently, it was nothing too serious. The Lord is definitely faithful.
that night was a reminder to me to tap on the Lord for all things, to stay on His highway, to stay in prayer and to be in full surrender to His will for to do things in our own strength may be impossible but in Him, nothing is impossible.
1 Chronicles 16:11 - Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
9:34 PM;
to love You from the inside out
i have learnt to ask when i receive...for i am His steward
every posting, every contract, every amount received is given to me with a purpose. i have learnt not to assume what it is for. i have learnt not to plan it's use for myself. i have learnt to wait and let it be revealed when the time comes.
many times i have asked "why". now i ask "what" and "how".
Isaiah 55:10-11 10 “ For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, And do not return there, But water the earth, And make it bring forth and bud, That it may give seed to the sower And bread to the eater,11 So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
11:16 AM;
to love You from the inside out
was doing my reading on the bus, i prayed for a revelation, for a learning, for direction. turned the bible pages to Acts 8 and read verses 26 to 39. something caught my eye instantly...
37 Philip said, "If you believe with all your heart, you may." The eunuch answered, "I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God."like Pastor said, when we're hungry - just eat, when we're thirsty - just drink, when we're tired - just sleep.
when i want to receive -
just believe.
in these verses, Philip was asked to go south - the desert. he obeyed and met a eunuch who was searching. because Philip obeyed and with his willingness to share, it led to the eunuch's coming to Christ and also his baptism. then Philip moved on to his next destination.
i want to be like Philip. i want to believe and share. i want to be led where i am needed, lead me to reach out to one in need. i want many things but are they what You want for me?
He gives for me to bless.http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=acts%208:26%20-%2037&version=NKJV
12:21 AM;
to love You from the inside out
my first love...the "God" moment.
the first real experience that confirms His existence. i cannot explain in words how it feels...the baptism of the Holy Spirit. there were many more "God" moments for me since then. when there is pain, i feel His embrace and i just want to stay in that warmth till the pain goes away. when i read His word, the joy of knowing He is just next to me watching and helping me understand is a privilege, on the bus or in a cab or walking along the roads or just sitting on a bench in the park or reading a book in a coffee shop, knowing He is there just next to me is a comfort...to know that nothing will go wrong.
everyday, i feel His presence. His love that surrounds me makes me want to do Him proud. sometimes it is so overwhelming it hurts that i cannot do enough to give my all, to share with the world of His goodness, His greatness and His holiness. it hurts so much that i am limited by my flesh. i pray to the Lord to increase my capacity. i want to learn all that i need to learn and to touch the life of one person...to 2 persons...to 4 persons...to 8 persons...to 16 persons and to as many as the Lord wants for me to reach out to because in Him, nothing is impossible.
Luke 1:37 For nothing is impossible with Godhow do i know He exists? no words can explain this knowing. i know because i have experienced Him. all i needed to do was:
"Open the doors of my heart and invite Him in. Then allow Him to start working on it. Follow obediently...not blindly.my Father is my partner in all that i do.
12:27 AM;
to love You from the inside out
does He know my heart's desires?
yes He doeswill He give them to me?
yes, when i can manage themhow can i prepare myself to receive?
learn ALL that He wants to teach from His word and the experiences He brings me through
there are no shortcuts to anything. obedience...is the key to learning all that needs to be learnt for the Lord to prepare me for what He has in store for me.
many things may happen that are beyond my understanding and i just need to know that the Lord has His agenda. something i learnt when reading
"The Heavenly Man" is that our folly and disobedience may bring harm to our loved ones but in faith and trust, all will be well. However, when we repent with all our heart, He will work to make things right again because of His love for us.
Dear Father, I stand before You now in repentance of all my sins. Forgive me if I have been disobedient. Forgive me if I have made You sad. I pray for Your mercy and Your grace and I want to thank You for loving me each and every day. Dear Father, lead me and guide me that I may walk on Your highway and not stray. Lead me where I am needed and grant me the anointing to touch the lives of all whom I am led to meet.
Amen
7:32 PM;
to love You from the inside out
City Harvest Church
Pastor Kong Hee
Song - Because of You
Song - Sanctuary
Song - First
Song - Beautiful
For all the wants in this world, we just need one thing - JESUS. For He is the joy, the hope and the peace. He is the way, the truth and the life.
Life is beautiful when you look upwards and outwards instead of inwards and down
Do God's work with no doubt, only faith
Let go of all your burdens and go through the eye of the needle
Colossians 1:27 - "the hope of God being seen in our world is found in you and me..and this is the way God created it.And the hope of God's love being heard is found in the words we speak"
if you remove this, i'll come after you!muahaha
wan t!ng
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