"The Heavenly Man" - When we arrive at the end of our own strength it is not defeat, but the start of tapping into God's boundless resources. It is when we are weak that we are strong in God.
above quote from the book "The Heavenly Man" ... a group of leaders were praying for deliverance of a murderer possessed by a spirit of darkness. they tried all kinds of prayers but nothing worked. all were exhausted and nothing seems to have any effect. out of frustration, they all spoke out to the Lord, "Lord, we can't do anything". as they sat there in defeat, things started happening, "...the Spirit of God came upon us and the demon-possessed man started shaking uncontrollably. We jumped to our feet and laid hands on the man. Immediately the demons left him".
when i read this, it reminded me of a time when things were just happening to my dad in hospital. everytime, we thought he's better, something has to happen and we were always told to expect the worst. it became very exhausting for me. a ruptured esophagus near his left lung caused it to be filled with fluid from the stomach. they had it cleared and by the grace of God, no further damage to his other organs were caused by that rupture. a few alarms were alerted after the surgery to remove the ruptured esophagus and to clean up the left lung and surrounding tissues, but they were usually minor and thank God, the results always come back as "all ok and nothing to worry about". then we got news that his right lung may be affected!! i questioned "Why?? why when You have brought him through the operation and everything else, why must something like this happen?" that night before the surgery to clean up the right lung and to check the surrounding tissues, i was restless. when everyone's asleep, i went to the hall and started praying for answers. it was a cry of desperation. suddenly i felt so exhausted and helpless.
i cried for a long time. then i realised that though i have been praying for his recovery, i am not without worry. there was still this small percentage of doubt and news of this surgery brought it to the point of a breakdown. i prayed for the Lord to take over, trusting that as in all previous alarms, this will be just another alarm and that all will be well. immediately there was peace and i knew my dad will be ok because the Lord has been faithful ... the surgery went well and apparently, it was nothing too serious. The Lord is definitely faithful.
that night was a reminder to me to tap on the Lord for all things, to stay on His highway, to stay in prayer and to be in full surrender to His will for to do things in our own strength may be impossible but in Him, nothing is impossible.
1 Chronicles 16:11 - Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
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