MY JOURNEY ..... YOUR STORY

introduced to Christ when i started school - St Anthony's Convent. we had morning prayers and hymns together with national anthem and school song. we had mass in the chapel and for some of us it was a break away from lessons, a time to rest our eyes, a time to do nothing. for me it was a break and sometimes a short nap. :)

all i remembered was that i could ask for anything from heaven by going through Mother Mary. i believed because everytime i lose something, i'll pray and i'll find it. it was a process that always worked. childlike faith? i guess so. there were no doubts then. i just believed. now that i think back, i didn't pray through Mary, i just asked to be led to where my lost items were and waited for signs. sadly, there was also no deep or sincere gratitude. just a simple "thank you" after that.

this went on all through my school days. however, somewhere along the way, i forgot about the asking for assistance or directions. i made things happen on my own and depended on my own strength.

sometime after seconday school, a friend brought me a to a Christian service...CULTURE SHOCK! where were the books? where was the process? where were the instructions? there was nothing for me to follow! i didn't know when to kneel or when to stand or what to say. however, i enjoyed the service. lost contact with my friend soon after and didn't step into a church after that until some years later for my sister's baptism. started going on and off with my family as shortly after that, my parents and sisters got saved and baptised but not me.

...the story continues in "my journey".

it has been trying for me the last 2 months and it got worst the last 2 weeks of April. not wanting to accept what was put in my path, the last week of April was bottom pits for me...wanted to give up on everything because i felt a failure in His eyes.

for ministry - did not want to be too involved because i felt i was not worthy to do His work
for giving of bible study - stopped because i could not move in His presence
for cell group - was not going to attend at all

...then i remembered what i have learnt in SOT - to stay in the House of God, to keep walking in His ways and the mind is the battlefield for the devil. i see the signs and i recognised it all. saying is easier than doing because it is easier to give in to all the negativities than to fight on. every morning though i did not feel like it, i will still give Him thanks for another new day, read His word and remember all the God-moments in my walk with Him.

glad i pressed on and went for cell group meetings because message on the last Friday of April blessed me tremendously. then came saturday morning, our once a month ministry prayer meeting. i asked myself if i can just give this a miss because i really did not feel like praying for anyone or anything but i reminded myself that i have to set an example and stay in His presence. i am glad i went because when i was prayed over, my burden was lifted and i know i am worthy in His eyes and He will walk with me through it all and lift me above the storms. His only request is to not forsake Him for He will not forsake me.

my trials are not over but i know i am not alone and i will walk out of this in victory for He is in me and in Him is my strength.

His joy overflows. i am ready to serve again and i know i still have my garden and mansion waiting for me...thank you all who have kept me in prayers.

through trials and tribulations, stay in His presence
be a willing vessel to be moulded towards perfection...to be more like Him

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to love You from the inside out

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the beginning
my journey
talk to me
my inspiration
prayer requests
what you missed
credits and quotes

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